Sunday, December 24, 2006
Perfect? NOT!
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
but it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you, proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
It's so0 hard to think abt it... Wishing that you'd be proud but you weren't at all... You wished i was as go0d and as talented as those of the others... Well, I'm not... You HATE all the things I LOVE ... You tried to make me abhorrence towards the things I adore . I'm Sorry but I can't do that... I wish that I could but I would be a robot instead... However, I did given up everything and I realise that i hv no meaning living or be alive... It will Hurt for you to see me change... Unfortunately, thats not the way I am... I love you but you jst don't understand...
I'm sorry for not being a go0d child... If i could turn back time, I would change things... I won't let you hv me... I'm a burden to u all... I can't bare to see you suffer b'cuz of me... Why don't HE take me instead of letting me left cluelessly....? How I wish that you'd see me but you never do0... I love you two so0 much... Now, i'm tired to seek for ur attention, your love and your presence.... I'm not perfect! I make mistakes... Forgive me now and forgive me will... I'm gonna be me which I hv a feeling you won't like it... Forgive me that I'm not perfect... Forgive me for everything... Forgive me for not listening... Forgive me for being alive... I'm not perfect... I'm not perfect...
-> No one is perfect
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
1:29 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me