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Sunday, September 30, 2007

Thank you



Thank you for inviting me to dinner. I really appreciate it although I didn't have so0 much fun. However, thanks again. Sorry for the inconvenience anyway. It's just ME that I jst show... Those who knows me best, would know...

I also would like to take another opportunity to thank those who calms me down. Nevertheless, I had enough and I shall stop here. People change and try to blend in. No denying it... Many2 thank you... Muacks..



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
12:35 AM


Saturday, September 29, 2007

It ends here



Once you lie and backstabbed
You were never once I know
Sounds stupid it may seem
But what hurts most, is unseen

Someone told me and made it clear
I am ME and i've made my decision
Not once, not a chance
The circle has been broken

Once I've said I had it
It means i'm through
I won't fake it
Cuz I'm not a pretender like you

I'll end it here and now
Hope you're happy with what you've done
It's not a misunderstanding
It's a straight forward proven thing...



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
11:51 PM


Friday, September 28, 2007

Peace



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Lo0k at it and tell me something....



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
5:28 PM


Are you happy now?



Could you lo0k me in the eyes... N tell me that you're happy now... o0o0o0o... would you tell it to my face that half has been erased are you happy now...

This song is playing in my head. I sang it to myself, lo0king in the mirror. For a minute, I would say that i am not happy... Why? I am fat now... Fatter than I was. I got pimples... Lots of it... Monster... Worst than Ugly Betty... But, when I think about the reason why... I am so0 much more happier although at some point it does make me want to have that old body... But b'cuz of that old body... It destroys me... So0 what I'm trying to say, beauty is the most dangerous weapon someone could own. I am happy just the way I am now...

It's not through the cover to be loved. It's the content. Sometimes a go0d-lo0k bo0k with an awesome cover has a very boring, less educative content. I've read a bo0k,"London Vampire Panic"... Seems interesting... But when I read it... It has my attention for only a second... The content 'at first' is co0l but getting bored the next.. However, it would make it even better if it were to be acted... At least, I understand more of it... hahaha...

This also reminds me of 'Interview with the Vampire'. After the death of his wife and his child at childbirth, Louis has longed for death. There weren't any means to live. It would take anyone. The whore beside him, the pimp that follows but a vampire accepted it. He became a vampire ever since.. The night that follows... Living as a vampire for 200 years... How would it be like to survive?

He has become a vampire... Dead like a corpse. However, alive as a creature called vampire. 'Are you happy now, Louis?'... I'm sure you're not. It's devastating to live in a world where you can be no fear or threat to the world. Threat to yourself lo0king at the world. Even when you're a vampire, your heart is a human. Survived in the darkness indeed... You wished someone would kill you now....



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
3:44 PM


Spacious



I never realise what go0d has brought me to0. Being cold doesn't really mean indifferent. Sometimes being cold is being aware of own's feelings. Cruelty attracted to those who are weak and inviting. Potentially trusted just anyone. Anyone that presume 'right'. I am not afraid to admit that was me. However, things that tumbles, crashed and burnt reveals the truth. The truth always hurt and the truth is not what you think it may seems. Life is a magnificent contrary ground. When you said something, it meant another connotation.

The world to some people may seems so0 small but little things can be taken as a very huge thing. It is not fo0lish but just like an art piece. A dot painted in the middle of a wide spread canvas can mean a lot to someone (may and may not be of the artist himself). A word does not have one meaning, it changes through the sentences used. It's how you use and say it. With a little spice could make a soup delicious.

An inch of an open do0r gives in fresh air through the ro0m. Close your eyes and listen to the tune. The tune will bring you wherever you desire. Don't be surprise if you open your eyes and found yourself in a very dramatic scene. It's never always beautiful. Nevertheless, beauty stands in the scene. Spacious, my people... Spacious...



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
1:44 PM


Thursday, September 27, 2007

I don't need impressi0n



People, I don't need impression for you all to like me. I am no angel nor go0d for people to smile about. I don't know what you people think of me but THAT'S JUST ME! Lo0k, why would I lie about myself? For you peeps to like me even better? Even when I said, life is a movie but I ain't an actress that hides behind a facade for the entertainment of the world.

I want people to know me as who i am. Know me bad, know me go0d. Don't judge me before you knowing me. There are stories around, flying from one end to the other end. Perhaps, my stories have gone all the way to the other part of the world. Humans always want to think their go0d. Who wants to be the villain anyway? However, it's not for me to judge myself and tell you peeps that I am on the go0d side or the bad side. I'm just telling you there ain't any go0d nor bad unless you judge either one.

In this world, you can trust no one. Not even your soulmate. All you can trust is yourself. Why am I being so0 cold? Well, it's because the unfaithful humans that lingers or existed in the face of my world. Neither would I tell you peeps that they are the bad people in your story. They are in my story that they are bad. Anywayz, if you lo0k at the world with the bigger perspective you'll know what I mean.

Black and darkness has been my colour and place respectively. Even if I longed for the light, it will always turned dark again. Just like the day turns to night. Believe me not but that's how I lo0k at things in my position. Neither do I deny that my life has been colourful. Alot of people may judge me that I do not have life. My life is plain. The same routine every day. Well, let me define my life. I never live in another yesterday, however so0, yesterday came in today.

I'm sure no one would understand that. Read it over and over again and you will know what I mean. The world is round people.

With this opportunity, I would like to thank those people who've been with me a couple of years ago and has been part of my life. Also, I would like to thank to those people who simply playing fake. (It spice up my life.) People who keeps secret and people who publicize secrets can be judge by their action not by their lo0ks. Whatever they say, I will not tolerate it. Call me childish and impatient... I have my own limit. I'm a human being to0. Giving in is totally out of my list if i've been giving in and being taken advantage of for years and years i've lived. I don't care if I lost love. Cause the only love that I cared about now is myself. Call me selfish... I don't even care...

It's with your action that speaks of you no matter what you say..."



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
1:55 PM


Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Hatred



What is hatred? In the dictionary it says, a feeling of intesnse dislike, anger, hostility, or animosity. hmm... Can someone lost love because it's covered with these 'hatred' in him/her? Well, I have no definite answer to that but there is a possibility to it. In fact, it can be a very high possibility.

Logically, how does hatred comes about? It won't make someone cry if there isn't a reason. Let say, someone cries either when they're feeling sad or happy. Even disappointed and betrayed can make someone cry. When someone cry, they're feeling frustrated and intense feeling of anger, which is hatred are being formed. Bit by bit, it grew and to0k over the love of oneself. That's when someone lost their love and only hatred they feel.

Hatred is a very dangerous behaviour for someone to own. Hatred = murder. Someone who is under stress can also say they're having hatred in their finger tips which can lead to murder. Ever heard about depression that caused by hatred which lead to murder?

These people who could not balance the hatred and love in their life would definitely had a wrong turn. You couldn't be possibly be as angelic as the prophet. You couldn't be as devilish as the Devils themselves. When you're to0 go0d, you are being taken advantage of. When you're to0 bad, you take advantage instead.

When someone possesses hatred in their life, they tend to kill. To nearest person they can kill is "THEMSELVES". This action is called,'commit suicide'. There are alot of teenagers that underwent these 'growth' of life. They're under pressure and to0 stress about their life. They began to hate and dissatisfied with their life. They want to end it all. End it right there! It's just to end everything. Some of them succeeded and some of them failed.

One thing they forgotten is themselves. One thing possible is they got mixed up. They HATE themselves instead of hating the 'world'. That's the reason why they want to kill themselves. They don't love themselves. It's easy for them to kill themselves anyway.

Stupid people, fo0lish minds. They use drug, slashed their wrist, jump off a building and even drown themselves drunken. Many,many ways to kill themselves. Why does these people don't love themselves? Classic one, swallowed sleeping pills. No sleeping pills? Panadols! Panadols not enough... Drink with coke.. 0oh, mixed with other medication... Lo0k, if you really want to kill yourself.. Jump off a building, 12 storey high... Why suffer when you tried to end your sufferings?C'mon people.. You do know what's the punishment for killing yourself. It's HELL...

Hatred may do alot of things but Love? Love is even greater. Love to HIM is greater. (BTW,I'm not talking about the metal band) Love.. Love is complicated. Love doesn't mean happy nor sad but Love is a mixture of happiness and sadness and joy and alot feeling that is indescribable. That "Love", saves you from whatever hatred you have. Btw, I'm not talking about lovers.

In reality, there is no such thing as fairy tale love. However, in general, it's all started with you. Your life begins because of you and the atmosphere you breathe in. Life starts with you.. To0 that I would, Love yourself before you love others. Give love to yourself before you give others love. Lo0k in the mirror to find yourself before you lo0k at others.

Let me share something with you, I love myself... :D



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
10:40 PM


The Candy Me?



He was there but he didn't see me
I'm to0 short for him to notice
He ate my guts and said i'm to0 sweet
To0 sweet of a candy me

I smiled and laughed
Cried in tears i end up
Mind crunched
Heart torn apart

Waterfalls it seems
River flowing in
Drowned in my own stream
Where has the sweet gone my candy me?

The chocolate store's in front of him
Reminded the sweetness of me
Came through the do0r
And think of one thing that I adore

Knocking on my do0r
Holding a bouquet of flowers
Pass me a box
Full of sweets and chocolates

There it was a smile shines through
Sweetness of morning, pleasantly content feeling
I am glad he's here reminded by my sweet lo0king
o0h well, what can i say? The Candy Me?



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
12:07 AM


Monday, September 24, 2007

To0 to0 bad



To0 bad so0 sad
Telling me stuff that you totally don't know
Ask yourself why those words came out
Aks yourself why you became such

I never said that I was a go0dy-two-shoe
I never said that I am
All I see was darkness
All I see was weakness

Cry on my shoulder
You wet my shirt
Damn! You've destroyed it
I would smile but not anymore

So0 long ago, you've gone away
I can't believe why i kept searching
Didn't know they all would be the same
Gosh! How upsetting, I am such a fo0l

Have me only in your memory
Cause I won't be here, not even for one minute
Won't be here to create more of those smiley
It's ashamed that I did

Carto0ns make me smile
They opened up my eyes more than I think it could
People change and people do forget
I can't believe it, i don't mean to brag



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
11:23 PM


Sunday, September 23, 2007

~Lame~



No point you came to me
Cuz, like you
I won't say a thing
Thanks for asking

To0 bad that you missed out the little stuff
When the big stuff are not as important as it may seems
Don't worry, it's just me
You have a life and you deserved it

I don't mean to brag
But I said it all out
Enough is enough
It's burning

Ask to know
Well, enough of asking now
Cuz i always got lies
Private and confidential

No point of asking nor let it out
There's twist and turns
Like the road you're driving
And the park you're walking

The answer is within you
My mouth is sealed



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
10:26 PM


Linkin Park



I'm so0 totally gonna go! Linkin Park is coming to Singapore!!! I'm old enough to go and Thank you!! However, I am alone.. Anyone wanna join me to watch them live? Ring me up... ;)



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
5:50 PM


Invisible friends



She said she'll stand by her friends. She said no matter what, friends are more important to her. She said we're bestfriends, sisters, buddies. She cried on my shoulders, with tears wetting my cardigan. She called me up when she's down cause she feels lonely. She tried to do stupid stuff but failed so0. Then, she realised that there are others care for her. Time goes on, she realised that someone else is better worth to be her bestfren. Drifting apart, i was being laid away. Her loneliness covered and now she's happy. How sad it is, she kept her happiness to herself. 0oh wait... she left me unknown and I am left with no information. Cast away, I'd always say....

Never say promises when you don't even know how to keep it. Your innocent face, your blur sotong crap, your go around the bushes are simply plain stupid and sympathyz. Don't say words that you will go against it. Ask yourself why i'm reacting such a way. Yeah, you have your own life... Yeah you control your life... Plain stupid if you just take friends for granted.

People of the world, tell me the definition of 'Best Friends"... They say Best Friends last forever... I don't see it lasted though... I see Best Friends are more of Invisible Friends...

My part of view, Best Friends are those you have temporarily until you find True Friends or 'Love'... I am thankful that i have true friends who considered me as another true friend. True friend shares...True friend does not keep secrets from each other... Some secrets are meant to be secret... It's no longer secrets when other knows but your own true friend don't know... That's not true friend, that's only best friend.... (no peeps... That's sad, ya know!...)

To0 bad, i'm just another invisible friend. I'm glad that someone found the happiness... Thanks for not sharing. I don't even want to know and yeah, you make me realise something... We can trust NO ONE! Only those who encountered the same fate as me, would understand.

I'm not a go0d friend indeed... I'm no angel, nor pure. I'm bad as the wolf. I'm a backstabber and a hypocrite. So0, people stay away from me.



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
12:49 AM


Friday, September 21, 2007

Movie



Have you watched the movie 'Joe Dirt'? Well, I watched it yesterday night and I didn't know it could be silly and life-learning. This guy was born to be an abnormal kid. Not in a way that is disabled or so0 just plain stupid or plain silly. haha... His parents seems to left him at a carnival when he was just eight years old. They make his life through until he was over 30++ in search of their parents. Cut short , through his years, he has gone through alot of misfortune and simply hated by everyone. However, his spirit was high and positive mind of his, make his way through life. He dares to dream. He even to0k any chances to be 'there'. His goal was to search for his parents who left him 15 years ago. No matter what he go through, he did stepped over the huddles even if he falls on it. In the end, he did managed to be at the finish line.

The movie isn't a silly, comedy that you learn one thing but through the movie... You learn ALOT! Some of the words he said were Never put a 'No' in your heart. I believe that those who wants to be somebody will be somebody if that person really want to be that somebody. As long as I'm go0d to people, g0od will come to me... etc ... If you understand these line, you do know what I mean. So, if you wanna know more about Joe Dirt, please watch it... Anywayz, it does remind me of 'My name is Earl... hahhaa

That is one of the movie that I watched to recommend. However, someone else recommended me a Hindi Movie called,'Don'... Shah Rukh Khan is the main actor and I simply rejected the movie when i asked further questions what it's about. My friend told me it's an action movie. hahaha... I watched the starting of Dho0m an acti0n movie to0 and it wasn't what I expected. When my friend told me about Don... I simply didn't hv any interest. Nevertheless, my bro lend the disc from his friend. I was bored so0 I watched it. To0 bad, the first disc was missing. I start from disc two.

Indeed, I was awed by it. To0 engrossed with it. I enjoyed watching it. It isn't what I thought it'll be. I'd say it's up to my standard. The plot, the ending, the climax... wo0w!!! Not exactly the typical Hindi action movie i've watched. The first, Hindi action movie that I like and enjoying watching it. I wonder if there's Don 2? hahaha... Anywayz, Hindi movies are mostly known as smo0th, full of emotions and family relation. At least, Don has the breakthrough of the concept... ;)

Enough about it... Go on an watched it.... o0hky, the next one... I wanna talk about Shrek 3... Yep2.. I just watched it. Shrek is a very enjoyable movie. Fairy Tales that have a twist plot. Villain versus the go0d guys... But to thik of it... Go0d guys can be the Villain when the Villain can be the go0d guys... From Shrek to Shrek 3... They haven't lost the touch of the quality and excitement. Sometimes movies with sequence might lo0se it's quality. Especially the carto0ns... Like for example, Little Mermaid sequence and Cinderella sequence... They are really damn bored! I prefer the to watch only the first of it. Don't mind me saying... This is just my opinion. Anywayz, I like watching them but watching the sequence of those movie simply doesn't catch my attention. I cannot watch it continuously except for the first. Get what i mean??

That's about it...



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
9:23 PM


Men nowadays



What are men nowadays? Men nowadays are fraudulent creatures! They came into your life as if they are the answer to your prayers. The light of all your darkness misery. The facts, they are the pitch black darkness that destroys you entirely. They go knocking on your do0r and smile which makes you melt. You closed the do0r but the knocking keeps on going. You started to think that they worth to live for and let them in. It's so0 sad... They simply walk out that do0r instantly when you just want them to stay. Living you lifelessly and without any concern of your state of mind. The best thing, they knocked on another beautiful do0r in the neighbourho0d.

I can never trust a men for my life. They will lie with every little bit of you asking their honesty. They gave you 10 000 promises but proves to you more than 10 000 excuses. Men are capable to act such drastic drama that will make you fall into their trap. They will cast a spell on you and hypnotise you to do whatever they ask you to do. Men are never loyal. One is never enough. Tend to ask for more. Greedy creature indeed. Not to mention, beauty, nice body and sex-E.. are all they l0ok for.

Another thing men nowadays. They have the worst ego compares to the normal ego that women has. They never accept changes. Sees you as what you are and not who you are. The status of 'What you are' means if you're a whore, you're a whore! They also tend to have this 'leadership' quality that tells you what to do and if you don't do, you'll get punish?! Yeah, whatever!!! Additionally, they will try to make you what they want you to be, because being what you are is just not their standard. Change you out of your own will, is so0 forbidden in the women's principle of law.

When they say,' I love you'... That means, 'Let's go into the hotel ro0m'! Stupid women!!! C'mon... Love? What is love? I can't believe that 'Love' existed. They say, 'love is complicated, beautiful and outrageous'? Those are lies. Lo0k around, out of 10, how many die because of broken love? '9'! You may think the 0ne is the lucky one but they die being in love. For example, accident on the wedding day... That's totally 'the end' of their love...

Happy ending? There will never be a happy ending. It's all in tears... Ever listen to Marilyn Manson, 'They said hell's not hot'? One of the line simply caught my attention,' relationships are just another girl's left in tears' . Now, what does that means? Men are just playing around with heart of the women. Even the song thinks so0 to0...

You can never predict a man's behaviour. Even if you had been together more than 5 years. They simply hold you close to their heart with one hand but another to another woman's hand. Fling? What happen? Why? To lo0k over at the woman's side. They totally love the man. Give their heart and home to live in but what does the man do? Live the house and go into another house?! That's what men most likely to do.

For those who's madly in love, just be careful. You may not know what they do and lie about it. Only HE knows. Trust is never a word to use. It's the doing. It's the proving. However, don't take my words seriously because this is Mine. My view about men nowadays. I wish I was born in a fairy tale. oh please! Let me be Princess Fiona or Princess Ariel to taste the love. o0h well, to0 bad... Men nowadays are just fraudulent. Don't trust men! Trust your guts...



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
5:55 PM


shitty...



People drink, smoke, weed.. etc... What's my cure? Music and fo0d. Well, just lo0k at me... ! I'm fat... Wait!... Fatter than I was!! Damn! I wonder what makes me such... Let me see... Time wasted... Yikes... To0 much on my mind... To0 much to0 think... To0 much... to0 much... and to0 mch of munching and eating!... Please stop!!



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
12:28 AM


Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Liar



You said you'd tell me everything
But you lied and go around the bushes, hiding
I'm so0 disappointed and laid there in silence
So0 sad that I'm just another worst companion

You smiled to me and say it was nothing
You played my mind when the answer was there already
I hate it when you just say but never proves
What's a mouth? What's an action got to do?

Liar you are, liar you are
I'm sorry but I can't trust you no more
I'm at fault indeed i am
But still, i can't see why you eat up all you've said and done



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
12:22 AM


Friday, September 14, 2007

Poem?



Sun awaken
Brighten up the city
Even when my heart is broken
Still i keep on living

Missing that someone
It has always been
Have been done
Yet again,can do nothing

He's close, She's close, They're close, We're close
Yet I am far apart

Not to worry, I don't brag
Even if i do, it would be to myself
Alone has been my nature
Not to worry, I won't eat like a vulture

For a smile would make my day
A brighter shine is all it takes to kill my disaster
Misery may seems obvious
Cherish is all miraculous

The sweet turns to sour
But the smile is still there
Sour is thrown
Here comes pleasant taste for the throne

Imagination is part of planning
It is also a creation of the mind
To be or not to be
May the spell not be bind



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
7:13 AM


Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Brigde to Tarabithia



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Is it me or is it natural that females tend to have creative imagination? Or is it influences by the atmospheres and environment that a person grew up in? An open mind to create a distinctive features of imagination! In other word, Fantasy.

Have you ever wonder how a play comes about? In a movie or a play, you know what will happen next. You can easily predict the next scene somehow. You know the role of every character whether they're bad or go0d. You even know the distinctive factors to make a movie an excellence.

Turn the table around and lo0k up on YOU. You are a character of your own movie. It would be a thrilling movie or play, I suppose. Why? In real life, you do not know your own role. You can be the go0d guy and something happened, you transform into the villain. Then, a miracle happens you changed and became the go0d guy that everyone praised. It is unpredictable! Amazing and exciting, indeed.

However, have you ever w0onder what is your fixed role in the movie or play? What is your own specific role? What does people think of you? What role do they sees you? Be mindful! Real life means different people has their own personalities and character. In addision, people has different views of a person. Nevertheless, only you knows who you are better than others, for this part of topic. There's a saying that goes, ' What we are, never change. Who we are, never stops changing.'

Bridge to Tarabithia is a go0d movie for me and I believe for the rest of you who is a fan of Lord of the Rings as well as Harry Potter. The differences is that, this movie is way more logic than of those two movies. I mean, it's not a total fantasy entertainment.

Watching the movie reminds me of my own childho0d. Imagine... no... Do you remember in those days when you were just a little girl or boy trying to save the world from evil? For boys, you would like to save the princess from the witch... Whoever the princess was in those olden days... For me, I save the people from the invasion of the evil darkness... Fighting up and down the hill, across river and flew over the sky. Automatic vehicles. Luxury services. Just name it.... Everything and anything...

It triggers a question to myself, "What have I become?" Followed by "why and how?"... It's sad to think about it. It has been so0 long gone and i never know when it starts to fade and end. Or is it lost somewhere in me? Or it is being hidden behind all the things that is 'reality'? I shed tears after watching the movie. The movie has not only touched my soul but it has freed...

To find out more why it is so0 go0d... You should watch it!!



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
10:27 PM


Sunday, September 9, 2007

Freedom Writers



I was bored! I should have gone out watching Hairspray but instead, had a little time jolt off some things. It makes me feel abit sad somehow. o0h well, at least I did see him for a while though. Before get to the conclusion, it's Haizel. A little time could mean something. Anywayz, it ended pretty quick.

However, I was really bored indeed. It was early yet to0 late for me to go to the cinema to watch Hairspray. So0, i thought that I could just have my time resting. I was just having a little time of my own when I get off my ass and head to the shop and get some stuff. I browse around the VCD store. Attractive titles seem to get my attention. I caught an eye to the "Blo0d and Chocolate" as well as "Bridge to Terabithia". I went to the cashier to make the payment. Something else caught my eyes; "Freedom Writers". I remember 'The Ellen Show'. It featured the story. It's an inspiration story about a real life event. I was interested when i watched the featuring of it. However, when it was out in Singapore... I kind of get it slipped. I didn't know it was already in the cinema. Without any hesitation, i bought the three VCDs. Cost me alot actually.

At first I watched Blo0d and Chocolate. It would be interesting if i were to concentrate on it. I had something else to do with the computer and stuff. Afterwards, i decided to watch 'Freedom Writers.'

It's about a first timer teacher who was hired in an 'overturned' scho0l. It was devastating for an unexperienced teacher to be teaching a class that has no absolute discipline and indeed in a very disturbing neighbourho0d. Imagine a student holding a gun and for a teacher, that would be very insecure and you are responsible of these kids. Suspected ideal class was the students to be paying attention. When she got into the 'real event', it shocked her and I believe part of it was fear she feels.

If i were to tell you the whole thing, it would totally destroy the motive of me writing it here. You should watched it. While i was watching it, alot of emotions came to me. I cried, angst and FEAR of the world. Not to mention, disbelief. What i've learnt from it was; 'From this moment on,every voice that told you that you can't, is silence. Every reason that tells you things will never change, disappears. The person you were before this moment, that person's turn is over. Now it's your turn!' ... It is a very powerful line. And so0, do believe in me and watched the movie dude! Get it from me for a free rent... hahaha...

It wasn't how I'd feel. Anywayz, it does make me feel much better. Life?! What can you expect from life?

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A little light, shines through...



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
11:22 PM


Pressure



The pressure is getting closer
Pushing me off the cliff
I can't let it be, now can i?
I force myself with all my strength to push it back
But I can't! I can't! I can't!

I'm falling down...
Hitting the ground hard
Bleeding.. I loss blo0d
I'm darined... Exhausted
Facing the PRESSURE...

The strom came to wash away the pain
Instead it drowned me in sea
I can't breathe and down, down, down I go
I sink to the bottom

I'm falling down...
Heavy on my heart
It hurts and it burst
It's exploded
Under the PRESSURE!!


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12:29 PM


Friday, September 7, 2007

Aiyahz



It's damped and heavy on the weight. A burden to everyone. Just when everything seems to fall into place. It breaks everything. Ended up in a road that force a choice. A choice that is unwantedly. If a life is of a choice, why does there always be guilt and unsatisfaction?

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? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
12:36 AM


Saturday, September 1, 2007

Nasty



Nasty, nasty, nasty fo0d. I've grown alot bigger than I used to0. Gosh! I've stretched my skin beyond it's limit. With fo0ds that are nastily delicious for the eyes to lo0k at and the tongue to taste. Yummy! Yum yum! But to lo0k at the outcome in the mirror... Biggy! Dum Dum!

It has never really been a bad S. Hey, who can resist fo0d. o0hky, yeah.. I got to have strong will.!!hmm...

The week has been cold to me. Colder is the one standing. Soft it was and harden by the cement of memories. Stain stays and can't be washed away. It's ugly to lo0k at but keep your eyes open to the big picture and there you have it, a wonderful creativeness of an art piece. It may not lo0k obvious but if you concentrate on it, it can be "disturbing". It's glo0my and dark, sad and low. A little shine of light has yet to show but can a light pass through the wall of coldness terror.

o0h well, time has past on and another week to lo0k up for. Waiting to end. It seems like forever. A life has gone and no one knew why? You can't eventually foresee what might happen tomorrow. Live life to the fullest people.

My body needs some lubrication. Searching and yet to be found. If only i get my head going. I might just get it right. I need nutrients, right now.



? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
9:25 PM


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