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Monday, June 25, 2007

When a new day begins... There's also a new Chapter begins.....



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What you see above is the old Me! Lo0k at my hair... Long and silky... haha... Nice long hair... I love the hair but it is long enough for me... It's time to have a new lo0k!! Don't you think so0? Well... I love my hair and i want my hair to lo0k go0d to0... Cutting off my hair doesn't mean it won't grow back right? hmm... I've done some thinking and some researching... It's time for lo0king go0d... haha... Lo0k go0d means feel go0d.. Feel go0d means lo0k go0d... hahaha... I cut of the fringe first! huaks... A day b4 i went on cutting the whole thing... hahaha

And so0, i went to Marsiling's salo0n with Rakinah for some survey. Seems like it's cheaper there. hmm... I got two salo0ns which offers $50 for the whole thing. I targeted for $60 though... co0l eh... Well, here's my lo0k... Kinah, got her haircut to0 into layered and reboneded her fringe... That's her pix... hahaha.... Like the chinese vampire... HUAKS!!

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Lo0k at this pic and the other one... do I lo0k alike? I lo0k quite different!! hahaha... This is a new beginning... Wuho0o0o!!!....


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7:58 PM


Tuesday, June 19, 2007

A new day begins



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A day begins when the Sun is up. You start to wash up and ready to face the day. I went to hit the road and stopped at a wide field nearby. The sun was coming up and i had my hp with me all the time. It's simply to0k my breath away watching the sky therefore i captured it to be still.

I feel free. The sky seems to be a bo0k to me. A bo0k that I won't get bored every single day. The day starts empty and slowly to a climax and to an end. How long a day is, how long you want your day to be? hmm.... I know my day would be long!! hahaaha...

Everyday has it's own surprises. Some are pleasant and some are just as dread. To start a day would be pleasant enough with a smile. Laughters would be even better. To keep up with that smile, always remember why you start ur day with a smile when you hv such an awful middle part of the day. Sometimes, it may work and sometimes, it's just as useless... hahha...

A new day begins will be if you allow it to be a new day for you... ;)



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1:32 AM


Thursday, June 14, 2007

It's so0 funny



It's so0 funny that I had to laugh. DUH! Well, the connections between mothers and daughters are so0 great. My mom knew something else about the work place but didn't want to tell me to0. Even so0 she feels guilty not telling me. When that happens I feel the uneasiness. hahaha... Now that I knew, I feel much more better and relief. At least, i'm not crying anymore and stressing myself what is going on. hahaha... My mom told me to ask myself which what makes me happy and what I really want. Now, that's when I get really confused. I'm clueless! My dad told me to find a full-time job as so0n. My mom told me what makes me enjoy. Can I be a full-time slacker and a part-time worker for the time being?? hahaha... I know this is scary. Nevertheless, I really want to enjoy like hell... hahaha... I don't know why I hv this kind of mind but from the lo0ks of things, u've been a full-time student when u're in scho0l and when you're out of scho0l you need to be a full-time worker? Then when u're retired then u want to hv fun?? C'mon... Where's the fun in that?? hahaha... I'm still young!! Let me enjoy my last teen as a real teen?? hahaha... huaks... hahaha... WTH!



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9:55 AM


Wednesday, June 13, 2007

What's wrong with me??



I've reached my peak. I better st0p denying!! I've been feeling qute low and down for these past few days. I know what's causing it but I can't really know why it's causing it. It should be great news that i've found my full-time job as a Trainee Childcare Teacher. However, to my own surprise it doesn't seems to be a great news nor get me excited. Instead, it gets me feeling worst!!! I really do want this job and I had it but why am I not happy? Why am i crying?? It's go0d beneficial and all but I just don't know why?! I love the kids, the kids aren't the problem neither do the staff. It's just me!! I wasn't being focus and a child fell down without me noticing it. I was out in the other land. I'm not sure if I deserve this job w/o any special techniques or experience. I feel so0 guilty and heavy. I am not matured yet I'm taking care of those kids?? hahaha... I am risking their stay. Parents send their kids to childcare centre with trust. I can't even trust myself taking care of these kids and expect the parents to trust me. It is so0 dangerous.

Another thing, I miss Sentosa's atmosphere. The sand, sea and the sky are just making it so0 perfect every single day even when it's the worst day ever! I guess that with my immaturity, i discover that I am not fit to have a full-time job at the age of 18. hah! Wth!!! This is really wreck man!! Really!!! I've made it through the interview and quit Sentosa but it's just doesn't seems to be such. I can't even believe myself. The pay is go0d yet i'm just feeling so0 dissatisfied. I wanna go back to Sentosa. This is it! Sentosa is the land where my grandfather used to live in and it's the closest thing for me to be close to him... hahaha... I know this may sound like crap. Haiz... I really don't know lah... When I quit Sentosa, it was the hardest thing to do. I don't even just go off like that, I stick around for awhile alone watching Sentosa from Vivo City... Siak arr, EMO lah seh!!!.... huaks....

I don't know what's going through my mind that time. The only thing I can remember was when will I be going back... I am sure that I will have a come back but I never thought that it may not be early or not at all if i have 5 and half working days. Damn it arr!!! I am such... Not to mention, I had so0 much fun and lo0king forward to work in Sentosa. I really don't know what to do....

I'm 18, immature to have full-time job and I am in a favour for enjoyment... ahahaha... Feeling so0 depress right now. U know what?! Even if I want to be a fashion designer or animator, I think i just pass. I guess that my Diploma is travel and tourism and i should be in that way of direction. haiz...



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7:58 PM


Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Rest



It is quite a sleepy day to start with. I didn't hit the road today. I planned not to watch the television tonight. Probably, this week would be the busiest and tirest week. I shall get my system reset. I've been sleeping more than 8 hours before this and work for 4 hours. A new start would be the other way round. Just like in those secondary scho0l days. Nevertheless, I should have at least 6 hours of sleeping. In a day there's 24 hours. Minus 6 hours of sleeping, 9 hours of working left with another 9 hours. This would minus of the journey to and fro to work. Then that would mean, a few hours left for me to have a time of my own. Hahaha... I make it sound as if it's to0 tight. As so0n as I get my system reset, I'd say... I'll be as free as a bird... :D The facts, I just need to trust.

o0hky enough of that... Now I am quite upset that I could not access to myspace.com. This is very frustrating such that it's the only site that I am active in. I don't know why but i suspect it would have something to do with accessing to alamak.com. My brother have been going there this few days. It is such a stressing moment really!!... argh!!! o0hky, I'm co0l... Peace



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6:45 AM


Monday, June 11, 2007

Monday



I woke up early and hit the road. I watched the sunrise and it was awesome. As always, the sky makes me feel peace. However, before I went out of the house, I went out and check out some things at my former ro0m. To have found out, all my secondary scho0l bo0ks are being thrown by the BITCH! I really HATE this!! She has no right to throw all those things away. I am planning to re-take my O level. It is my choice to take it for fun or if there's any reason behind it. Now she has threw it away which makes me DAMN FURIOUS!!! Nevertheless, I calmed myself down even when I am not really satisfied. HELO0!! SHE THREW IT AWAY!!!! Who can take it seh!! Argh!!... o0hky... fuuuuooooo.... I'm relaxing myself.... I'll be just fine... I'll be fine... No point in firing right??!!.... Just waiting.... haiz...



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8:44 PM


Sunday, June 10, 2007

Sleepless Night



Yesterday was not a pleasant night for me. I was half asleep the whole night. Nothing was bothering me really. However, I felt as if there's uncertainty among the atmosphere. It's cracking my head pretty bad. I almost had migraine, i guess. (how do u spell migrain anyway?) My handphone dropped twice and it woke me up as if something hit my head. In the end, I woke up at 6.20am and hit the road. Since I was sleeping outside, I am quite sensitive with the sound around me. My brother was not sleeping. He was playing the computer and watching tv. I couldn't drive myself to sleep either. It was quite frustrating. I am fine if I was really tired but I'm not sure. I just couldn't bear the noise. I NEED MY PRIVACY!!!!

I get on my feet and hit the road. Aiming to go to the stadium however, I turned around and stationed nearby. Guess that my fats already discouraging me to go further. Nevertheless, it has been awhile since i hit the road. Don't you remember?? hahaha.... Had a moment of peace and was sleeping. As i laid down and watched the sky, I was drown into the other world called the Dreamland. The smell of fresh air and the music of the nature puts me to peaceful sleep. If i brought my pillow with me i'd say i might have sleep on the spot. Basically, that tells me that I need some vacation. I am planning to go overseas at the end of the year if possible ealier. I just need somee escape from the life. If you know what I mean.

On my way home, I to0k some pictures of the sunrise and other elements. I can't describe the feelings as I watched the sky and the clouds turned into shape and the round ball came up above and to0k place. It was so0 wonderful that I am always surprise. Sometimes I wish I could be the sun that lights up the world of others or the stars that twinkling and dance around the mo0n. The facts, I am just a human that seek for some answers that has yet to be revealed.

Reaching home, I expect my brother would have gone to bed. Unfortunately he was still watching the t.v. I wanted to rest but I wasn't in the mo0d to be on my bed. I wasn't feeling quite comfortable such that my brother was smoking and i inhale the air. It's really a disturbance. My privacy are being invade and so my health problem. It is damn frustrating and depressing somehow. Don't ask me why I didn't tell him. I had my speech long time ago.

Frequently I asked myself if I was 'Rogue'. Well, I am Rogue. I mean, I admire being the character but I wasn't sure if I want to be as lonely as she is. She sucked the energy force from a being which makes the other being weak or worst, die! No one can be with her even if they want to. She can't even feel the warmth of someone she love. It's like a normal person would distant away once they know who she really is. Only certain people who is similar to her would stay. Iceman was her boyfriend, he's a mutant. Obvious enough that he understands her.

I know it is lame to be talking abt carto0n character. Nevertheless, at least it does makes sense at some point. One in a milion....

--> Twinkle, twinkle, little star... How I wonder what you are? Up above the world so0 high... Like a Diamond in the sky... Twinkle, twinkle, little star... How I wonder what you are?



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7:41 AM


Friday, June 8, 2007

One of the days



It's just one of those days when you're feeling really down and lower than the ground. Everything seem's to be a dim and you can't really think straight. Sometimes the thing that doesn't matter to you seems to be the only thing that you can think of. Sometimes the things that really important to you seems to be the least. I can't explain how but it seems like it has lost its way and tangled itself. When this kind of feeling came, I just feel like speeding up the time machine. It will be o0hky as tomorrow comes and everything will be back to normal.

Being str0ng towards something is not easy. Constanly being str0ng and constantly maintained the power is just as hard as laughing on the death of someone dearly. However, it is your job to smile when the tears comes by. crying is not in the dictionary that you are using. Weak does not exist and l0sing is the last thing you want to achieve.

Nevertheless, you are human. Emotions and feelings exist. You can't possibly push yourself when your limit is already at its highest. Breaking down sometimes it's go0d thing to let out ur feeling at the same time, it is bad for your health if you do not know exactly why and denying why u broke down... Seeking help doesn't state that you're weak. Seeking help states that you are not strong enough to push the do0r open. It is best to share the weight among those you trust.

Whatever the reason that brought you down, turn to the mirror and say, 'I am strong, I can do this! Why am I feeling sad?? I'm being silly'... and laugh at yourself... :D Laughter is the best medicine. I never said that crying is a sin to do but however so0, cry as much as you want if that makes you feel better. Don't be afraid to cry. Crying is g0od. Crying is not weak, infact it is also a medicine that heals and make you stronger the next round...

We humans. We have our weakness, our strength. We can't expect to be different from others. As much differences we have our own status. Let see, fruits. They are delicious. They are go0d and healthy. How many types are there? Alot... We are humans. We are vulnerable. How many types of humans are there? See... we are all different but we should know ourselves better than the rest. We make ourselve weak if we just don't do anything. We make ourselves strong b'cuz we want to be strong. It is your choice to eithr be happy or sad. Sometimes, emotions just know what you really need. Like what i've said, you're not Superwoman. As much as you are happy you are also sad... Balance!!! :D


--> It's not wrong to be sad! It's not wrong to be happy!... so0 live life to the fullest....



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4:42 PM


Wednesday, June 6, 2007

My friends



Life isn't easy for all of us living on earth. Problems keep coming. There's no escape, there's no end. Nevertheless, that doesn't mean we should give in. We should be strong and try to solve things in the correct way. You can't possibly get yourself doing stupid stuff and left ur life to0 a waste. I am trying to help but I can't change your mindset if you don't want to0. To help you is to0 help yourself. I may say stuff that might hurt you but that doesn't mean that I didn't support you or so0. I love you and I don't want to lo0se any one of my friends that have helped me through living in this life and making me as who i am. Who i am today with a smile on my face is because of you people who have helpd me through. Every moment I've spent with all of you, are the times when I had so0o much fun. Friends are family and family are friends. Don't hesitate to tell. Don't hesitate to cry. Don't hesitate to laugh cause you'll never know how much fun you're missing! Pick up the phone and dial when you need to0. When you don't need to0, but feels like talking... Duh! just call... haha.. o0hky, My friends... You all are as precious! Love you all... I miss Bob so0 much... Muakcs

--> Friends are forever...



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11:55 PM


My ugly face



I never believe people say me pretty or beautiful. I call myself ugly betty because there's a reason behind it. Pictures can be deceiving. I know i'm being negative right now. But hey... Don't trust me?! Lo0k at these picture below - aren't I UGLY?! No wonder no one wanna be my friend... hahhaha... Huaks...

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o0hky, how? hahaha... I am not afraid to sh0w EVERYONE how ugly i am... hahaha... Hey, friends... I know you so0 want to tell me how ugly i am but u all afraid i might get hurt. Admit it! I am an UGLY DUCKLIN!! Huaks... hehehe...

Well, actually I see myself as beautiful. Hahaha... I am beautiful no matter what they say... Words can't bring me down... I am beautiful in every single way... Yes, words can't bring me down... hahaa... So0, don't you bring me down today.... :D

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I don't know what to say. But there are times when you just wanna know "why"... and there are times when you just don't even care if the "why" does matter to you. To me, when the time comes I just try so-0 hard to tell myself that I am beautiful and that I don't need anyone but myself... hahaha.... o0hky thats really lame... o0h well, sometimes emotions just sucks...

Self esteem really plays an important part of one's life. Somehow, to me, it determines how well you carry yourself. At the same time it determines what makes you worst and reveal your weakness, which in part is go0d cuz you'll know what to do to improve on the weakness.


--> Ugly is the new beautiful... huaks



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11:11 AM


Monday, June 4, 2007

Where has it gone to0?



The past of mine I don't wish to be reminded of
It keeps haunting like a barrier between me and my happiness
Those who knows may leave me
I don't wish to be stranded like this
It's ashamed to lo0se someone to0 precious to be losing but the past is as if the poison for living
Can anyone tell me a solution for this?
I am confused and out of idea
To lie, is a suicide
To tell, is a homicide
Will people know?
Will people understand?
Will people lend a hand or throw me out from their sight?
For now, I am just a human being with full of mistakes
A human being that have learnt from her mistake
Awaits for her happiness to come by
Awaits for her joy to make her smile again.....


A friend of mine wrote this. I just wanna share with all of you that, no matter how dark your past is. Don't be discourage. There's always a reason behind everything that happened. Do not fear of getting leave by those whom you might have called precious. To love someone is to love their past. If you know what i mean... The past is just only a lesson to be learnt. Someone who knows and stays; understands, accepts and believes in you. However, be careful to whom you tell. Nevertheless, you have the right to tell or not to tell... Listens to your heart...

--> Leave the past behind and move on everyone...



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3:43 AM


Random



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I was browsing through my picture files and come across several pictures of squirrel. Well, for me, it was quite difficult to spot squirrel on the mainland so0 i to0k these pictures... It's seems to be extraordinary... haha... This is also taken when the former Musical Fountain was still around. I really miss Musical Fountain. Latest news, it's totally gone. There isn't anymore Musical Fountain and everything's gone as days gone by... how sad!! aiyo0o0...

Anywayz, on Saturday I went to my uncle's wedding and it was the clumsiest day for me. First, I spilled my drink on the table.. Well, actually, there were two tables and it was uneven. I put right in the middle of the two tables, therefore it toppled... Then i ate my meal, i didn't realise there was gravy on the edge of the table... So0, it stainded my clothes. Not only one place but it dripped over to my skirt. Damn!... Then afterwards, i was drinking and i didn't know the water around the cup dripped onto my skirt... wth!! I know.. and I didn't know... hahaha...

Another thing, all my life i never dare to karaoke at wedding. That day was the first in history that I sing at the wedding without fear. Damn! What's gotten into me?? wo0w...

I had fun though on that day. It was the clumsiest and fearless day i guess... haha.. Wth... :P

--> Have fun when you still can....



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12:41 AM


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