Saturday, July 28, 2007
:'D
I'm in tears not because of anything major though. hahaha... My hair! It's turning straight again! hahaha... Gosh! I really do have pain in the neck hair just like the owner. hahaha...
I am gald that my friends from work called me up just now just to sing birthday song for me. Belated... I am happy and touched! I cried lah kan!... hahaha... Singlish! Thank you people! Thak you! I really do appreciate it and can't wait to work at Songs of the Sea. Missing there...
hmm... There isn't much of interesting tv shows today. Kind of bored to0. Lazy to0!! hahaha...
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
10:58 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
A day out
Zizah, Kinah and I met up at the last minute plan to watch Captivity which i misto0k it for Disturbia. However, it was abit similar kind of movie. Anywayz, we dr0p by Dhoby ghaut (The Cathay) but none of the movie we intend to watch was up on the list. For a minute, we thought of having another movie... Zizah was in favour of 'Al0ne', a Thai movie... I was in favour of 'Paprika' a Japanese movie since Captivity wasn't the movie that i thought it is..Kinah, she's anything... Although, we're in the favour of others... We still wanted to watch thrilling movie. haha... Finally, we checked out the list at Zizah hp and bugis junction has 'Captivity", Bugis Junction GV is not on my top list cinema, then again... we just went on ahead....
We arrived there about 3.25pm and the show's at 4pm. We purchased the tix and gosh! The person didn't believe we're 19!!! huaks!!! My b'day was just yesterday... huaks!!! Damn!!! o0hky, so we went on and buy Chicken Wrap at LJS. Stuff it into Zizah's bag and went on in to watch Captivity. It was captivating at first, then... as it goes on... I find it quite lame and bored! Although, for a while it does grabbed my attenti0n but it was predictable... ISH! Out of 5 stars I'll give 1... Not worth watching in cinema...
I was laughing after watching such a silly movie. Then after, we went to Bugis Street and it was freaking funny!!!!!! Zizah was telling me about this guy's voice, he seems to hv lost his voice and I tried to imitate him but failed to0 cuz I couldn't stop laughing.... Then Kinah and I caugh sight of this one HOT ANG MOH at one shop... It was a very slow motion moment and I was like... 'wo0o0ow'... when someone just banged onto me and I banged onto Kinah which leads me to a 'falling' scene which luckily did not happened!!! HUAKS!!!! I strated to laugh like nobody's business...
We went on around and around the Bugis Street to checked on some clothes and stuff. I was just doing a normal window shopping which I didn't know that both Zizah and Kinah was also monit0ring of what I'm eyeing for.... Gosh! You peeps really make me blushed... I caught an eye on a pair of shoe which is damn nice lah... I didn't expect you peeps would actually take that in as an opti0n... I am really grateful that you peeps bought that for me... I really love you peeps and i do love the shoes...
Afterwards, we went around accompanying Zizah to buy some clothes for herself and met up with Samitha. Our chairman whom also hv the same b'day as me only that he turned 21... haha... It was quite and interesting trip today. Samitha seems so0 ROCK! and alot of new stuff i learned today... I really had fun!
Life: It's a GAME! (I have to go to work early tomorrow such that I'm replacing my colleague. I should hv accompany my mom but I am als0 to0 lazy to go and I need of money for next month also leh... huaks!!!)
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
10:53 PM
A year older
Wehee... I am back.. As you all may know, there has been some meeting back in Malaysia. Quite unnecessary for me to inform the details. However, I am glad that despite me being overseas you all have been so0 kind and send me messages that I adore so0 much. Thank you!! I love you all! To lo0se a friend is like lo0sing a part of me, to gain one friend is making my life complete. Treasure you all!! It is an honour to have you all as friends.
I couldn't believe what the number says about me. I am thankful and blessed to have live until now. You never know when the time is up. I grateful to have meet s0me of you in the past years, some of you recently. Without each character, I wouldn't know what are the colours there is. Thanks again!
I wouldn't say I am matured nor I'd say I am childish. All i can say i'v reached to an age that is the last of my teen days... hahaha... o0h well... At first, I feel old but then when i lo0k around. I realise being such means more than just a word. It's the experience you have in life. Within this 19 years, I've realised how much worth it is to life. The fun and the sadness. On top of it all, I learn that a life can control what's affecting them... It's a matter of practises and allowing. I wish I could talk more but I am late for something... I'll drop by again, later this afterno0n... :D
Happy Birthday to me~!! Birthdays are meant to be celebrated b'cuz it's the day you to0k the first breath of the oxygen... Be glad... Even if the most person you want is not around... You have you... Celebrate alone doesn't mean SAD.. But it means, blessing! ;)
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
10:03 AM
Monday, July 23, 2007
Taste Silly
Do you know what I miss the most? I miss those Macroni Soup they served in Ping Yi Primary Scho0l back in the years. The moderate taste of the soup and spicynez of the chilli with the addition of those macronis... Wo0w! I feel so0 hungry. Hey, I've eaten alot and still something missing and it doesn't really fill me in. I just watched Naruto episode 166-167 and they're about Ramen! Wusho0o0o... I feel so0 tempted to eat those delicious carto0n like no0dle. The soup described is so0 damn delicious and I am dro0ling. Gosh! I should go for a diet trip. Eating ALL seems to be fattening just to find something that taste "POWER!"
I have this thing that says, I'm quite a huge eater. (Chouji-san! Naruto-san!)-hahaha... I just eat something until I am satisfied. When I eat more than one sco0p and have that 'hmm' face, it means that there's something missing. IF i to0k the second sco0p with a little amount and have that 'hehehe' face, it means... This is delicious, I shall dream about this fo0d and longed to eat again. And so0, I'm eating less... hahaha... Go0d fo0d are go0d to eat less... Less go0d fo0d will mean, Extremem go0d fo0d... Get what I mean?
Having all this talk really makes me feel guilty to have eaten alot. I guess, I really need real fo0d to really feed and satisfied my stomach. Erhm... I want something rewarding and deliciously profitable to my stomach... ahahaha.... o0hky, I think i should stop talking abt fo0d... hahaha...
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
3:29 PM
It's just a matter of time
It has been ten and plus2 days since i wrote something here. So0 perhaps, those would want to read what has been happening. It's not that I don't want to update stuff but it's just that I didn't have much time to write much. Plus the irritating 'stucknez'...
o0hky, here it goes... I've been shopping alot. Wheee.... hahaha... I shouldn't have shopped however, it's GSS and also you know what month.. (JULY!) Yeah! In about 2 days from today. hahaha... I am also been busy working. It is tiring! I don't know how my life at work's going to be. However, I am holding on as it is. As long as I smile and everything will be just fine and the day will past. The day past and you wouldn't even realise it's already next year and the year after. Time has been moving faster than I thought it'll be. Sometimes I wonder when and how it'll end.
Smiling and laughing are times when we are all in a happy mo0d but in between, who knows. It's just a matter of time to know. It's either we tell or we just keep it to ourselves. Either way, time will always tell. Pr0blems came in and out as they wish. It's our willpower to overcome such things. Sometimes, sacrifices are necessary and what you are not overpowered seems to be drastically weaken. Most of the times, you have to cho0se one over the other. Sometimes, you just don't realise if it is wise to cho0se. Then again, to cho0se is to know and to know is wiser than not to know. ;)
I don't care if they think me otherwise. I don't care if they think i'm a fake. What is real, is when you sees it when you're not seeing it. Get what I mean? No? o0h well...
Let's get into other stuff... I will be going off to my grandm0ther house to meet Bob. Wehehe...!! I can't wait to meet him. I am longing to meet him since months or so0 ago. Probably, he'll be sulking. 0oh well, even a minute is little but my love and presence means alot more than just that. Hopefully, he knows that. I love you, Bob!!
For those new people whom reading this might think that Bob is my boyfriend. Well, the fact, he's my pet, cat. He is my friend, my brother and my all time favourite "nagging machine". Not to menti0n my alarm clock to0... hehehe... I miss him so0 much. He migrated to my grandma's house to get some new fresh air and life perfected to his style. Even a cat would want to be out of the stressing life. We will re-unite when the time comes.
Hey! Did I menti0ned that whenever I see couples, i would laugh? Even just by the word BGR, would crack me up about 2 minutes? hahaha... Don't ask me why? But it sounds so0 funny. I guess, I've lost it all. I don't think BGR exist in my dictionary. Not even faithful, loyalty and sincerity in the face of the Earth. Although, I do believe there is some unknown, I have still yet to discover. At the moment, it's BLANK!
Wonder is all I can do and keep wondering is what I am go0d at. Tell me if you know, tell me perfectly well. Words are not for me to know, actions are for me to believe. If you have what it takes to change the theory of mine, please do so0 and make me believe I'm wr0ng....
The red isn't the colour of anger... It's a colour that says, "I am here, and I see. I am aware so0 BeWaRe"...
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
12:05 PM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
See what I've found
I ran through some stuff today and found quite a surprising things. My old notebo0ks Incomplete ones. I laugh at some and thre some without any hesitation. I realised how much i've changed and grown from things happening. It is not a mistake that LiFe is a part to play. I am amused of myself and glad that I've gone through alot of pain. Tears of loneliness has always been my company. I'll never feel down. I will never will. Down under is just another place that i've been.
I realised alot of things and I don't mind what people think. As expected, I knows it all. It's just a matter of how I did it. I know you peeps won't understand what I'm saying. It's to0 complicated. Even I will get my tongue twisted if I explain it. Simplest way to understand is to observe and analyse. In other words, pay attenti0n! Anywayz, you don't understand b'cuz you can't. It's hard to understand one person when the person doesn't want to be undesto0d at all. By the way, don't mind my words. ;D
It's just the past before the past, was so0 great and flowery. I didn't think that it totally affected me and everything came tumbling down. It has proven that I shouldn't make any improper decisi0n. I like it that way. Call me an Emo, call me an Anti-social girl. I am who I am and I live by myself. A smile is never a fake. A laugh is never just make. Believe me and you will know. Crazy is just another word to describe but Amusing is an actual word to make the stand. Entertaining it is. Boring is never IS...
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
4:55 PM
Monday, July 2, 2007
Growing up!
I received alot of comments about myself being quite childish indeed or probably not serious enough about life. Well, one thing I'd like to say is 'Thank you' for the comment. I appreciate it and it gives me some thoughts about myself.
First of all, from my point of view - I am serious about life but I don't tend to be such that things have happened and it has done quite alot of side effects. These things have made me realised that I am not ready to be serious when i'm more serious than some people might think. Probably, what makes you peeps think that I ain't matured is because I don't want to be matured yet. hahaha... Actually, the topics or the stuff that we're basically talked about does not concerns of any seriousness.
Secondly, I'm scared and i know almost all of us are about growing up. Frankly, i do want to grow up but some situati0ns do play a part in growing up and why some people reacted in such a way. To me, I know when I should be serious. However, when to be serious to me may not apply to those around me. I find myself having a totally different mind set and thinking than those around me which makes me feel outcast at some point but glad to0..
Then again, I frequently asked questi0ns that irritate those close to me or so0. For example, how do u think abt me or where should I be more focused on. O0hky, m0st people might answer me by saying,' Just be yourself..' That is totally not the answer I want to hear. If i have that answer, might as well i don't ask at all. In life, things happened for a reason. To find a reason the easiet way is to ASK. Therefore, I asked because I have a reason for asking. My reason is to adapt to the environment asking how the environment is. I can't basically pollute the air when the environment is clean. Get what I mean??
I don't mind all of you call me childish and immatured. I'll be more happy to accept it cause it shows that I have alot more to learn. Alot more obstacle to overcome in order to reach a certain level. I remembered what my primary 6 teacher, Mr Tayeb said. Girls are more matured when they're at the age of about 13 to 21 or so0... For guys, when they reached the age of 18 and above... This is however, true enough in theory.
It's not that I don't take anything seriously or to0 seriously. Sometimes, if you want me to be serious, it depends on what subject and what are the things i'm doing. Also, I need you to be my eyes for mine SELF. Like what you've mentioned, I am not matured. Now, I didn't see that way. If possible, spot the stuff when I'm not serious and when I am. This would very much help me grow to be someone that you might want to see me as. I don't have to smile for someone or impress anyone about me. Then again, to be impress of myself alone, sometimes is not enough. Compliments are also part of the achievement of being impress of myself which would lead to a smile and congratulations to myself. So0, that's how I see things. Don't worry about me trying to impress anyone cause basically, I am not and factfully, I am trying to reach a certain level of growinig up or how the atmosphere is. An outcast I am but also adapting won't hurt.
If you see me being alone in a gathering, doesn't mean I am emo or anti-social (although i can be an anti-social sometimes..haha...). It is actually, how I adapt on things. Sometimes, to act on somethings you have to view it from the top and see how the situations goes like, right? Well, that's how i do things. No denials, sometimes I like to be alone at certain point of time - Don't mind me, just have fun. I will ask if I need anything. :D
Growing up is the main thing about Life. Thank you for those who have been such a helpful person and given the most sincere comments to me. From the bottom of my heart, Thank you and please don't stop monitoring me and tell me about it. I will be more happy and joy to change for a better me... :D Don't worry, I will take in, consider it and fix it.... Well, thank you...
--> Grow up... Isn't what I do best but I will do my best... ;)
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
11:44 AM
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Cry me a river
izen toshite shinobiyoru kodoku... I really hate it when it comes over everytime when I was just about to smile. It really makes my days feel so0 hopeless and troubled. Keeps thinking about the possibilities of every single emoti0n. I maybe in one of those days in a month but then it's so0 irritating. Why can't a heart and a mind feels and talks the same language. The heart is always right and the logic comes in mind. hmm... ?_? aiyo0o0o....
My tears are impatient to emerged yet my eyelids are keeping them in. I feel the hurt. I feel the pain. Then again, I am happy and overjoyed by what i am right now. I am contradicting myself. I know. As much as I want to admit is as much as I want to deny it. The feeling is so0 undescribable. Truly, I really don't know why I should go through this again and again and again. It's stated that I gave it up! So0 why does it have to come bouncing back and make me cry like the ocean space.
A new chapter but an old pr0blem. Help me! Please someone, help me!! I am desperately in need of someone to help me with this freaking, troublemsome problem! Gosh!! I really hate it!... hahaa...
o0hky, cry me a river! I cry myself a river wide.... huaks....
-- Peace --
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
6:36 PM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me