Saturday, December 23, 2006
I wish I never know
I wanna get away from all of this fast... Being blame for one ChoCOlaTEY thing i did not do... ChoCOlaTEY!!! I am one and they are two... One told me to listen to the other one and now bitching me saying I did not listen to that ChoCOlaTEY one itself... Yeah!! Throw him away!! What is he anyway? Jst an ANIMAL right? You wished that you could throw me away to0... Don't ya? Let me tell you this vaNiLla, that animal IS the only ONE that ever understand me, being there for me and always comfort me.... YOU were never there for me NEVER!!! said that you've given me everything eh? Well, you've forgotten to fill the bottle with water... Said that you can be my friend ? You can never be a friend nor a family! You never know what i go through and you never cared to know... All you care is abt that BITCH !! All you can see that facing problem is that bitch... That Bitch! That Bitch! That Bitch!!!... Where am I?? Where did you put me?? You said I blamed others for things happening... Well, you never heard my prayers... You never see my tears... You've never sense my fears... You never know what i'm feeling... YOU NEVER in my life CARE abt me...
Thanks for everything you've supply me with... The needs of a human being... Nutritions, Educations, Shelter... But No thanks for the Love of emptiness You thought you've given all equally.. Yeah! I am rebelling you... Do you know why? Cuz i'm thirst of your ChoCOlaTey love... I've kept everything inside since the day one that I know I'm out of love... Ever wonder why i'm the most BIGHEADED among others?? To0 bad that you never know and will never know... Everytime I wanted to tell you cut me short and blame me for the rest... Thanks alot for taking care... Thanks alot for the help... Well, i tell you what... I don't need your help... I don't need your love... I don't need anything from you no more... Just let me go and I'll be gone from your burden...
But please don't take my only love away from me... He has little time left and I wanna be with him... You said that I don't love him... You said that I didn't take care of him... If i was allowed to use the money for his operation , I would... I'm keeping my money for him... Even so0, it'll take years for me to reach that amt... I let him sleep with me, cuz I know he wants to be cuddle... I was being banned to do that coz he StrawBERRY my bed... I don't care n I don't mind.. But you were the one that's making a big fuss... What does all of this have to do with my friends? I don't even meet them, I don't even talk to them abt anything like this... I don't even care to open my mouth and say these things except when they ask or i jst wanna let it out some... They only said, 'be co0l.. things will get better...' So0 you mean, I shouldn't listen to them and be co0l? Well, I'm not being co0l... I'm not listening to them... I'm listening to myself and asking for rebel... Now what you're gonna say abt that???
You're taking him away like as if he has no soul.. No love... No feeling... You said that you love him when he first comes here n enlightens my life ever since... When the child comes you abandoned him... You hate him... B'cuz he rebels you... yeah! Like what I do... He doesn't listen to you... He just does whatever he wants... That's what I do... But u didn't see that coming, do you? Why he did all that? You didn't notice that to0... He seeks for your attention... He seeks for your love.. That's what I’ve been doing for years... You can't see it that you did the same thing to me... You said you love me just b'cuz you gave birth to me... Well, i don't see that you love me... You gave him nutritions, shelter (cat don’t go to sch); you gave me that to0... But you missed out something that is the love for us two... STOP saying that you love me and given a fair share... Those are just words... I am disappointed... You've said that i've disappointed you, I don't care... Cuz I hv no reason not to0... You take him away and let him die alone... I'll hv the grudge that haunts!
Wish that you'd understand... But you'll never... Said that I'm the stubborn one.. Guess what? Where do I get my genes from?? I know I am bad... I don't care if people know and HATE or DISLIKE me for it... I don't give a ChoCO laTEY damn abt anything... Even if it scares EVERYONE away, that includes someone(even if it change the mindset of that person, i don't care anymore..)... Let Fate do all it's job...
-> Where's Miracle?
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
2:12 PM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me