Friday, January 5, 2007
Annoyed
I am annoying, aren't i? I jst couldn't get along and it sucks me up. Pointlez in helping or trying hard to be in 'it'. Nothing can compare... I'm not jealous nor upset the light is black on me. I'm jst feeling uneasy. I'm co0l with everything but if one disagrees, better off not to invite. Faking it just doesn't go well with me cuz its easy to sense awkwardnez... Awkwardnez is bad news! Bad as in i won't enjoy and i'll get pretty much ugly. Besides, one of my friend mention something like, 'if you don't feel like having me around, I'll go0... It's pointlez in making each of us feeling disatisfied at the end of the day...' He's totally right! I know that you don't want me around or be part of 'it', u're just faking it b'cuz of the others n the others doesn't hv any problem with me... only you!.. Am i wrong? If i were wrong, you'd talk to me, lo0k me in the eye and share the fun... But no.. I'm jst left cluelez and blur... I pretend to be blur F.Y.I, cuz who am I to share the story with..
I hate to pretend. Pretend as if nothing bothers me. Pretend not to be 'ME'. Pretend that everything's o0hky but nothing is (in this case between you and me). No wonder i feel so0 disrupted. Didn't think this would've happened. Sarcastically saying to me as if i'm a primary scho0l kid. I do act childish and immature cuz that's my nature but that doesn't mean that i don't know anything. In other words, to think abt it... We're kind of the same cuz I think u're annoying n irritating, not funny and StRawBerry Cupcake . I think that u'd think i'm that way to0... What difference between us is u're a cheerleader that everyone love... Me? I'm jst a junk that everyone hates and doesn't want to be near. How upset could that be?? Life of a diminutive girl...
o0h well, who cares... I've encountered ChoCOlaTEY CupCakes like you before and I totally don't give a damn anymore. Tried to fit in but I jst can't. I'll survive.. Even if that'll cost something real special to me and to lo0se to you.. Congratulations! You've won the stage.
-> Lead your own life
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
1:56 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me