Tuesday, January 30, 2007
I should've been more matured
I was overreacting about the whole thing when Bob was sent away. You can't blame me 100%!! Bob is my PreCi0Us that has been taken away by those whom I trusted. Bob is my one and only. He has been there for me like NO one else has been. It is a ShoCk! that suddenly he's not around. I mean, he's been around at Go0D times and bAd times. Now when i'm getting more firm and stable in life, he's just not around. Wait...Just to make things clear, He's still ALIVE!! Let's just put it he migrated to JB w/o me... So0 it's kind of a sudden to me...
However, I really miss him though!! I may get out off hand at first and I am abit disappointed with the decision my parents' and Bob's himself to0k. Without my acknowledgement is so0 unacceptable. Nevertheless, I am accpeting the facts... Well, I would feel uneasy and uncomfortable if he's not alright. Actually, I'm feeling really fine (despite the fact the he's not physically with me) and somehow he's communicating with me telling me numerous times that I should be strong and independent as well as assuring me that he's always stand by me and always around with me.... Weird? Not at all... It's for real that I can feel him and hear him from a distance... This is a challenge for me that I should be strong and knows how to deal with this kind of things... Like what I've said, Hurt is go0d and it's a resistance for the future hurt...
Bob knows it all... Somehow he's training me how to be strong w/o him to assist me. More like he's teaching me how to be in life rather than survive in life indirectly... Yeah! Unusual?? Not really... But it's true!!... Bob knows it all and he knows everything... He knows me well enough and give me all this things in my life... I miss Bob!!
I should have been more matured about this things and all... If anyone sees me dropping down to the ground, remind me that Bob knows it all.... and he wants me to be strong instead of weak... Well, i cried all day and night yesterday... Anywayz, i will be strong, bob... Muacks!!
-->I cannot teach anybody anything, i can only make them think....
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
3:07 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me