Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Knowing
Knowing that Bob's fine at my grandma's house in JB is a ReLieVE . I'm glad that he's doing o0hky and I'm glad of myself that I'm taking this fine. I'm sorry that I've jumped to conclusion, Dad. Guess that I'm abit ChiLDish at times... I'll try and be more matured and remind me i'm not 9 years old (how i wish i was) and that I'm 18 :D.. Guess that my dad was right after all... By sending him there, he might be having his free and great time of his life... Similarly, I go travelling and wanna get 0uT of this lifestyle once in awhile so0 does Bob... He's been in the house for quite a long time and never really out to0 explore... Guess, it's time for him to enjoy, since this house is quite unstable... He's innocent and it's best for him to be out of town for a change. Besides, i know how that feels when u're not at fault but gettinig hit all the time...
My dad told me that Bob is really upset with my mom... I knew it from the start. I knew every single second how hurt he feels. But I am heLpLesS . I can't really deFEnD him cuz i've promised my dad that I would make my mom happy since she's lost her other daughter so0 i try to have as little arguments with her as i can... If possible, no arguments at all... Well, it was really a heartache. Now you can see for yourself when it's to0 late... Need i to remind you that you've hurt me to0?? Nevermind, if i were to remind you... I will hurt you even more deeply... Now that you know how hurtful it feels to get DitCheD by someone whom you lo0k up to0... Bob has been keeping that hurt since erm... very long time... Not weeks, not months but YeArS!! If i can do anything about it, i would have... But I have no control of it... Knowing that the truth is out, is a great relieve for me... At least, she knows that he's hurt. Knowing is more than anyone could ask for...
Talking about knowing... It is such a StrAwBerrY ChoCOlaTEY VaniLLa IcE CrEaM to know that my bro PurPOseLY dropped my hp last night!! He's the eldest and helo0o0o You're suppose to help Dad!!! Using my hp when I want to use it... N mind you, my job isn't MULTI-MILLION pay!! I have to pay for my bills and I pay for the ones I use... What I'm not happy abt, he ScReaMeD!! at me when I demand for my hp.. For a moment, I let go but the next... That's my hp he's using... I don't care if he wants to hit me, punch me to death... That's my hp and I PAY for it... I work my 'S' out to get enough to pay for the bills... It's unfair to let him use just like that and in addition, i ain't going to pay extra cuz of him... Just wanna let it out!!... I will banned him from using my hp!! He's got his own hp, mind you... Argh!!... Relax... I'm co0l...
Well, guess that I have to deal with everything on my own and maturedly eh?! I know I can do this... Although, I may get the downfall but I will try and do as best... :D Well...I miss you, Bob!! I promise you one thing, I will visit you whenever I can! I won't miss not visiting you at any time. I will visit you with my tight schedule... The least would be once a month but I would be doing my very best to be there every once a week... ;D
Give help rather than advice
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
2:10 PM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me