Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Not a Mystery but Misery
It is P.I.T.S (pain in the S) when you tried to help with everything at any way but ended up you get ScOLdinG for being so0 generous. Then when you're not helping and as per normal, you get the 'SaMe BuLLsHiT' . What do you think? Yeah! It's like what the hell is going on? Which is the one that I should do? I totally don't understand what they're trying to ask me to do. Being matured? I think i'm way to0 matured (by pass my elder bro and sister). Being just me? Rebellious and don't give a foRking damn. (i'm sick of making them cry and pretend that's totally nothing). Being a rubbish bin? Where they can throw everything at me as if i have no feelings at all and sometimes it can be considered listening ears (that could be a go0d thing)... Nevertheless, they have no RiGhTS to condamn me making me feel like i'm at fault when i totally have nothing to do with whatever it is.... Argh!!! It's enough for me to feel corrupted in the PasT yEARs. Give me ro0m and the oXygeN to breathe!!
At some point, I feel fortunate to have such family. People got jealous over our bond. Hold there, you're not living under one ro0f with us. You don't even know what really is going on!!! Picture is: I'm the Youngest but yet the Eldest. I'm longing to have younger siblings but I don't wish to be the eldest upon the eldest who have BrAinS, MiND and eYeS to see what's really going on and evaluate from it.... Not to mention, HIGHER EDUCATION !!!!That's not all, it creeps me out when suddenly bf becomes so0 important than family and willing to even kill the family member...
Some would say i'm quite mysterious and all cuz i'm abit quiet and there's so0 much to learn... Well, i tried to be mysterious but i'm not mysterious at all... More like MiserY-ious ... The go0d thing right now is, I don't let some small thing brings me down... DOWN to the Ground!! I have my own individual life to deal with... At times, it may really put my patience to the test which i hate... argh!!.. o0h well... What to do life's like that...
-> Full of challenges
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
11:40 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me