Thursday, February 1, 2007
It's funny!!
I always wonder how weird it was when my friends got along WeLL with their fellow siblings. The reason being, I can’t remember when was the time that I got a pat on the shoulder and congratulated by any of my elder siblings. I can’t even remember when they actually ask me what’s wrong or what’s going on… Or should I say, I don’t think they ever do that… Sometimes, I do envy those of my friends who are go0d with their siblings… Never do I heard of them fighting like they’re in a ring or something (for girls only). Unlike me, we do get in SeRiOUS fight over something really SmALL…
I do admit that I am a really P.I.T.S child to handle. I won’t deny that I am ReBeLLiouS
and RuDE at times. For a certain matter I can tolerate but being disrespectful to me under my possession IS totally InToleRabLe. I can be soft-hearted at times but don’t get me into that DimEnSioN where I can be quite HaRsH! I am a straightforward person that I will say what I have to say. I used to keep everything inside cuz I don’t have the guts to say. I’m not saying that I hv the guts now… It’s more to logic. If I don’t bring up, no one knows… The most painful part, the ones who are older won’t really take any advice or word from the younger ones… It’s natural I suppose in general, but those who can really think, they would judge any comments made to them. However, these ‘older’ ones are the ones that think they are being born first so0 they are a step forward then those who are born later… VaniLLa Ice Cream + MocHa Ice CrEaM
I am quite upset but I don’t really care. Before I went to work, there had been some performance in the house. Basically, I have limitation usage for my hp and I am very certain abt using it. Once I told that person ‘a message’ indicating please do not disturb or interrupt in the usage of my hp, it clearly means the usage is ONLY for ME, I can’t afford to pay more… I’m not saying that I am stingy but I can be if the person does not show any go0d example or any history records upon such cases. I mean, my bro used my phone several times and yes it is my fault to give him to use it when I was not supposed to0. However, when I nagged it means you shouldn’t ask next time… Y’know what I get? I was told that I was being rude and o0h my gosh!! I got BASHED!!! The reason I nag, one I hv limitation. Two he used my mom’s phone and exceeded to 1000 bucks… If my pay is multi-million dollars, I would hv allow him to0 use it all he wants but hey I’m the youngest and I’m paying the bill… I was nagging and at the same time saying the facts… Clearly, he doesn’t like it. Reason, I’m the youngest sister POINTED OUT CLEARLY his mistakes… Ada masuk akal?? Who’s being rude now? O0hky, I did also said that next time use the payphone… DUH !! What wrong with that??..
I didn’t cry a tear for this one. I mean, like what I’ve mentioned earlier, we fight over small things!! Kindergarten level!! Besides, I’m not at fault. It is my rights to nag! In addition, he should know how I sound when I don’t allow… But why do I still give him?? A little sympathy… However, I made it clear. It’s my loss, b’cuz he already used it and is brave enough to bashed me up cuz he already use my phone… Haha to0 me… Whatever lah, I don’t care anymore… Whatever he wants to do is his life arr… Just don’t interrupt with my life if he can’t even tolerate such problem. I’d say, other brothers won’t do that… They would apologized for using my hp or they would asked it nicely… Yeah! Asking is another thing… He sounds more of DEMAND rather than asking… StRaWbeRRy ChoCOlaTEY CaKE!! One thing that made me clueless, he wrote a letter saying,”the family has no more bond. We’ve grown far away…” Am I reading this correctly?? O0h yeah, I send msges to my parents and to himself after the incident on my way to work… I wanted to say it but he didn’t give me a chance… why? He’s busy HURTING me… Yeah!! He thinks I’m gonna keep quiet?? He thinks by bashing my mouth, my face, I would keep quiet? Hell NO! Not anymore! For 18 years I’ve been keeping my mouth shut!! This IS the time for me to0 BLOW up!!! Btw, if I am really cruel, I would use the law!! This is considered abusing.
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
1:04 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me