Thursday, March 8, 2007
Friends or Foes
Can you trust your friends when they say they'll be there for you?? Can you trust your friends that they would be missing without you? Can you trust your friends when they say next time we'll ask you? Can you trust your friends when they say they won't hurt you or tell anyone of you secret?? Can you really trust your friends? Are they your friends or are they your foes?
Ugly Betty is what i'd call myself. Unwanted by the society and being treated like shit. A handful of those will only understand. However, a handful of those will decrease into just a few. You feel betrayed when u trusted so0 much but unwanted around. You tried to fit in but your size is to0 big. The pain is so0 great but when you just said it, they all deny it. Would you feel comfortbale when the others ask ur closest friend to join but they never ask you? Even when you know that they will be going somewhere but when you somehow wanted to get the invitation the others just kept quiet and never ask,'would you want to come along?' It hurst quite deep. You thought that all these years and all the times you've spent would make no different how you'll be treated as you KNOW all of them... There would be no question if the new friends think you're that way and this way.. They're just new and they only knows a page from your life. However, and old time friends that you considered close treats you like strangers is far more greater pain that you will feel.
Sometimes what does a friend for if there's a gap in between. (I mean, best friend or close friend...) They are right indeed. A handful is not the ones but a few are those you can rely on. Don't speak of secrets with me... Don't speak of times you wouldn't want me to share with. You can say it straight to my face you're unhappy about it. You can lo0k into my eyes and say that you mean it. Lo0k into my eyes and see the tears falling. Isn't that what you all want? I maybe bad, I maybe rude... I have my own reason and my own way to deal with life... I'm not saying that my problems are worse than u but i'm saying that I am proud what i've gone through... Thank you for being part of my bo0k. Anywayz, i'd say u're a coward if you don't say the truth. I'm a person who will take the risk and any chance to get the truth. If it hurts me so0 badly that it poisoned me to death, I would take the risk. At the end of it all, I know the truth and it will heal.
I'm not mad neither am I glad. I'm just saying what I feel. I can cho0se not to say or to say. I am co0l and I am always co0l. If they want me, I am happy. If they don't want me, i can't force them to0. Either way, I am happy to be alive. I am happy to be just the way I am. Love me for me, Hate me for me. Know me for real, Fakers are just not me. I am laughing now! Friends or foes... Who cares? At the end of it all, i'll be alone in the ground. :D
-->>Friend or Foe, who are we to judge?
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
2:24 PM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me