Thursday, March 8, 2007
The girl
She dashed in didn't lo0k to her side. She was sturggling to lo0k what's ahead and listening to the music the band was playing. Her best friend tapped her and she turned thinking that she wanted to say something instead her best friend pointing at her other side. There he was standing next to her. A flash of memory strikes her but she let go and tapped him saying 'HI'... In her heart she asked,' Do you still remember? Do you still want to be my friend or are you backing out and don't want to be near me anymore?' She assumed the answer and pretend that nothing happened. She walked in deeper and sto0d up watching the band. At the back of her mind, she didn't know if this was a go0d idea. She knows for one reason that she's there aiming for the music and having fun. She also knows the priority was to see him eventually. Kicking aside the fact that she has found yet she knew something was amissed.
She let go of the pain. She let go of the sorrow. Closing her eyes she drowned herself inside the music they play. Her mind taking her through and she's struggling to shed it off. Strong she feels. Weak she fears. Tears nearly dropped from her eyes but covered with her long hair and wipe them dry. The lo0k of him made her smile but the thought of him made her die. She wanted to bust out and run as far as she can go but at the same time, she's telling everyone that's just a show. Remembered she once told him that she is co0l with everything but what her thoughts may make her as a fo0l.
She misses him so0 much she didn't know why. He never called her once nor knows her well. She didn't know him but why the feeling just keeps coming in? She's cluless and confused. Her other side told her that this all feelings are fake. Nothing can be trust and no one can be trusted. With her own eyes she knows alot about pain. Everyone around scares her more than fate. However, she wants him to know. Then again, the words just won't come out when she had the chance.
He went out with the rest, she knew her heart was breaking and wished that he could have given her a handshake go0dbye. Nevertherless, the show must go o0n. Rythm to0k her to move, meloday to0k her to sleep and harmony to0k her with a smile she swings. She didn't care what the rest would have comment all she cares she's having fun with the music. She laughs, she smile but her heart crying dry.
Her hands move and type the words to one of them. Replied normally and He came to it. They began to exchange words and to her surprise, he thought she's attached. From then she knew what was amissed. He got it all wrong previously. Back to square one where he didn't know any single thing when she thought he knew and make it as if nothing. At once her heart felt relief and she was quite glad that he didn't. However, somewhere she wants him to know but she only said that her heart was stolen by somone she knew. He asked who but she didn't know if he really wants to know or just playing question game with her. She couldn't type the words right and only type unrelated ones.
Thought it would at ease the situation but she thinks that he might get the wrong idea again. Maybe that lucky guy he thought that has stolen my heart is another human being when all the while it's only him. She feels like she would stop playing games and say forward to him. She have no clue why the feeling is towards him but it's hard for her to explain to herself why not him? To0 early, to0 so0n... (Let the silence reveal it all... Patience is all it takes :D) Although she knew the answer will still be pain, a little hope won't kill the flame.....
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
2:26 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me