Thursday, April 5, 2007
Appreciation
When the night turns to day, someone woke up and heard : "Go0d Morning, dear. How's your sleep? Ready for a trip of the day?" Unknowingly that person disappears. There were no sun, no stars, nothing was around. Floating in a space where nothing to be seen. It's dark! Scary! LONELY! Suddenly,"Hi there! You are?" Jumped by the question.. answered the call. Freaking out, there were no sound but the mouth was moving... "My name's Angelina, call me Lina. Nice meeting you, _____" Surprised! Angelina called a name but the person didn't know the name. The person thought to herself, "am I blind?" Angelina heard her and say, " Are you crazy? You're not! You're lo0king at me straight in the eye! You have perfect visions..." The person talked instead of thinking. The person shuts up and sat down quietly.
Cold the person feels. Someone puts a cover over the skin. This time it's a male. "Helo0 there, my name is Scott." The person asked for Angelina but Scott only sees the person alone. Scott talks about the snow, the person was to0 shocked to believe. The person never know snow. Scott to0k a handful of them and gave to the person.
The snow melted and suddenly the person feels hot. A child comes by and laughed. "Are you insane? The weather's hot! It's summer! Why are you wearing a huge sweater?" The person was stunned and sweating all over. The person asked the child where's Scott. The child began to fear and screamed,'You're carzy! You're psycho!" The screaming went away and long it's disappeared.
The person feels so0 rejected. Every person that met went away without saying go0d-bye. Tears rolled down, though tears are just nothing. Pain and suffering. Hollow and sorrow. Why is everything unpleasant happened to me? Out of nowhere a motherly voice came to be heard and said,"What's so0 unpleasant? Why are you crying child?" The person told the motherly voice everything that happened...- Yesterday, I can see the wonderful things in Life. I can see the Sun, I can see the Mo0n. When today comes everything disappear and all i can see is nothing! I can hear, I can feel but I can't even listen to my own name they're calling...
The motherly voice laughed and said,"You haven't lost anything. All that you've met are here beside you. The Sun and the Mo0n still up in the sky. The weather keeps changing and we all knows how to dress. You are just blind folded. But, I can't untie the cloth. You tied it yourself. Only you knows the way to untie it. " The person was clueless. Blind folded? Searched for the knot but nothing. There were no cloth over the eyes. The person began to panic and almost had the life.
The motherly voice demands her to calm down. She began," It's not for your hand to untie but for your soul and spirit to do the job. It's not a normal cloth that you wear everyday. It's not a cloth that can be reached at any distance away. A cloth that's unseen and untouchable, only appears when you've lost ________." The last word seems to be unclear to the person's listening. The voice began to lower down and down and gone.
The person called out for help. No one came. Thinking about what the motherly voice said. "What have I lost?" In a fast speed, something flashes in the mind. Blurred it may seem but the message given was somehow clear. Angelina mentioned "perfect vision" ; Scott gave her the sweater as it was "Winter" and the child called her crazy because it was "Summer". However, nothing was happening. "Is it that i've lost the sense of sight? I can't see Angelina. I can't see Scott in Winter and I can't see the child in Summer." Again, the person can't find anything.
Suddenly, an angry voice roaring at the person, "You've lost yourself! Angelina know your name. Knows you have perfect visions but you don't care all you see was emptiness. Scott gave you the sweater in Winter. Times are cold! Gave you something for you to survived but you don't know. Child feared you cause you talked to yourself in the heat of the Sun when you can build sand castle with the child." Disappeared!
The person realise that something missing was a word called "Appreciation!" The End!
Do you know what is appreciation? Sometimes in life, we all take things for granted and asked for more. I don't appreciate life. I don't appreciate myself. Frankly, I don't! Everything that I see were all terribly wrong. I can't see the Sun. I can't see the Mo0n. I can't see anything even with my spectacles on. All I see is pain and sorrow. I was hard on myself. I stop believing almost everything. I have no soul. No spirit! Empty. I've made mistakes. I've made it HUGE! One time I fell down and hurt myself badly. I was injured and the scar lives in me. I began to cry dry. I began to give a smile. One by one thought me something. My eyes began to open up. When I fell, I heard someone said... "You don't appreciate. You take things for granted. You're useless! Sorrow and pain are all you feel. If you want happiness and joy, search for your own basket..." This is why things changed for me. I was hurt because someone pushed me down. I got up with the sufferings! I got up!!
---> Time is to0 little to cry and asked why. It's all about you finding the answer instead of sitting and begged to be fed for the answer. Get up and searched for more why's....
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
1:18 PM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me