Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Given up!
Somethings happened and I just can't believe that it's so0 predictable and still i let it just come through. It's not what happened but it's just ME! Everything's just about me. ' Sho0t first, asked later'~ that's what I learnt from Supernatural. Yeah, i know. It can be up to the negative side. Then again, try first before jump onto conclusion. o0hky, but this 'it' thing really crapping me up and eating my guts out. I should feel like a rotten apple right now but one thing makes me quite fine. QUITE fine indeed.
Wake in a sweat again
another day's been laid to waste
in my disgrace
stuck in my head again
feels like i'll never leave this place
there's no escape
i'm my own worst enemy
i've given up
i'm sick of living
is there nothing you can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong with me
i don't know what to take
thought i was focused but i'm scared
i'm not prepared
i hyperventilate
lo0king for help somehow somewhere
and no one cares
put me out of my misery
Given Up by Linkin Park, Minutes to Midnight (track 2)
Reading at the lyrics you can roughly know what it's telling. Listening to the music would eventually triggers some angst and at the same time a feeling of revitalization. Focusing on some of the lines or verse---
The first verse to connect it to some situation. It's like an incident happened again to a person that wished it won't happened again in the past but eventually happened in the present. It's such a DISGRACE and it feels that this person is trapped when there's no ESCAPE. However, the concentration goes to 'I'M MY OWN WORST ENEMY' ... It's not the atmosphere but the problem comes from the person itself. Maybe, when the person thought everything would be just fine but it's not and it's actually himself/herself alone is the problem.
The chorus - this person has tried alot of things to rejuvenate himself or herself. Then when that particular thing happened, it's just tumbling the defenses that has been built. It's just so0 upsetting and disppointing which makes everything seems to be so0 impossible and gives the attention more to the 'Self' itself and sick of livinig as well as asking around 'what the fuck is wrong with me?'
The second verse - indicates that this person is at the highest point where he/she needs the security. Focus became blurred and braveness became fear. Confident became unsure and things starts to be so0 confusing. Lo0king for help but none would want to give a hand to. Loneliness would eventually triggers by this time.
So0, that's what i've summarised from what I understand of the song. Listening to this song actually help me through cause at least I don't feel like i'm alone. So0, whenever i feel down or need something to calm me down... These are the songs that I listen to. Somehow, they push and gives the determination to me. Most of the time, when i'm in trouble or on the verge of somethings... I ended up being alone. So0, these are the things that i do when i'm alone. Honestly, being alone is much much much better. :P
Thanks to Linkin Park...
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
1:50 PM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me