Sunday, June 10, 2007
Sleepless Night
Yesterday was not a pleasant night for me. I was half asleep the whole night. Nothing was bothering me really. However, I felt as if there's uncertainty among the atmosphere. It's cracking my head pretty bad. I almost had migraine, i guess. (how do u spell migrain anyway?) My handphone dropped twice and it woke me up as if something hit my head. In the end, I woke up at 6.20am and hit the road. Since I was sleeping outside, I am quite sensitive with the sound around me. My brother was not sleeping. He was playing the computer and watching tv. I couldn't drive myself to sleep either. It was quite frustrating. I am fine if I was really tired but I'm not sure. I just couldn't bear the noise. I NEED MY PRIVACY!!!!
I get on my feet and hit the road. Aiming to go to the stadium however, I turned around and stationed nearby. Guess that my fats already discouraging me to go further. Nevertheless, it has been awhile since i hit the road. Don't you remember?? hahaha.... Had a moment of peace and was sleeping. As i laid down and watched the sky, I was drown into the other world called the Dreamland. The smell of fresh air and the music of the nature puts me to peaceful sleep. If i brought my pillow with me i'd say i might have sleep on the spot. Basically, that tells me that I need some vacation. I am planning to go overseas at the end of the year if possible ealier. I just need somee escape from the life. If you know what I mean.
On my way home, I to0k some pictures of the sunrise and other elements. I can't describe the feelings as I watched the sky and the clouds turned into shape and the round ball came up above and to0k place. It was so0 wonderful that I am always surprise. Sometimes I wish I could be the sun that lights up the world of others or the stars that twinkling and dance around the mo0n. The facts, I am just a human that seek for some answers that has yet to be revealed.
Reaching home, I expect my brother would have gone to bed. Unfortunately he was still watching the t.v. I wanted to rest but I wasn't in the mo0d to be on my bed. I wasn't feeling quite comfortable such that my brother was smoking and i inhale the air. It's really a disturbance. My privacy are being invade and so my health problem. It is damn frustrating and depressing somehow. Don't ask me why I didn't tell him. I had my speech long time ago.
Frequently I asked myself if I was 'Rogue'. Well, I am Rogue. I mean, I admire being the character but I wasn't sure if I want to be as lonely as she is. She sucked the energy force from a being which makes the other being weak or worst, die! No one can be with her even if they want to. She can't even feel the warmth of someone she love. It's like a normal person would distant away once they know who she really is. Only certain people who is similar to her would stay. Iceman was her boyfriend, he's a mutant. Obvious enough that he understands her.
I know it is lame to be talking abt carto0n character. Nevertheless, at least it does makes sense at some point. One in a milion....
--> Twinkle, twinkle, little star... How I wonder what you are? Up above the world so0 high... Like a Diamond in the sky... Twinkle, twinkle, little star... How I wonder what you are?
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
7:41 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me