Monday, July 2, 2007
Growing up!
I received alot of comments about myself being quite childish indeed or probably not serious enough about life. Well, one thing I'd like to say is 'Thank you' for the comment. I appreciate it and it gives me some thoughts about myself.
First of all, from my point of view - I am serious about life but I don't tend to be such that things have happened and it has done quite alot of side effects. These things have made me realised that I am not ready to be serious when i'm more serious than some people might think. Probably, what makes you peeps think that I ain't matured is because I don't want to be matured yet. hahaha... Actually, the topics or the stuff that we're basically talked about does not concerns of any seriousness.
Secondly, I'm scared and i know almost all of us are about growing up. Frankly, i do want to grow up but some situati0ns do play a part in growing up and why some people reacted in such a way. To me, I know when I should be serious. However, when to be serious to me may not apply to those around me. I find myself having a totally different mind set and thinking than those around me which makes me feel outcast at some point but glad to0..
Then again, I frequently asked questi0ns that irritate those close to me or so0. For example, how do u think abt me or where should I be more focused on. O0hky, m0st people might answer me by saying,' Just be yourself..' That is totally not the answer I want to hear. If i have that answer, might as well i don't ask at all. In life, things happened for a reason. To find a reason the easiet way is to ASK. Therefore, I asked because I have a reason for asking. My reason is to adapt to the environment asking how the environment is. I can't basically pollute the air when the environment is clean. Get what I mean??
I don't mind all of you call me childish and immatured. I'll be more happy to accept it cause it shows that I have alot more to learn. Alot more obstacle to overcome in order to reach a certain level. I remembered what my primary 6 teacher, Mr Tayeb said. Girls are more matured when they're at the age of about 13 to 21 or so0... For guys, when they reached the age of 18 and above... This is however, true enough in theory.
It's not that I don't take anything seriously or to0 seriously. Sometimes, if you want me to be serious, it depends on what subject and what are the things i'm doing. Also, I need you to be my eyes for mine SELF. Like what you've mentioned, I am not matured. Now, I didn't see that way. If possible, spot the stuff when I'm not serious and when I am. This would very much help me grow to be someone that you might want to see me as. I don't have to smile for someone or impress anyone about me. Then again, to be impress of myself alone, sometimes is not enough. Compliments are also part of the achievement of being impress of myself which would lead to a smile and congratulations to myself. So0, that's how I see things. Don't worry about me trying to impress anyone cause basically, I am not and factfully, I am trying to reach a certain level of growinig up or how the atmosphere is. An outcast I am but also adapting won't hurt.
If you see me being alone in a gathering, doesn't mean I am emo or anti-social (although i can be an anti-social sometimes..haha...). It is actually, how I adapt on things. Sometimes, to act on somethings you have to view it from the top and see how the situations goes like, right? Well, that's how i do things. No denials, sometimes I like to be alone at certain point of time - Don't mind me, just have fun. I will ask if I need anything. :D
Growing up is the main thing about Life. Thank you for those who have been such a helpful person and given the most sincere comments to me. From the bottom of my heart, Thank you and please don't stop monitoring me and tell me about it. I will be more happy and joy to change for a better me... :D Don't worry, I will take in, consider it and fix it.... Well, thank you...
--> Grow up... Isn't what I do best but I will do my best... ;)
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
11:44 AM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me