Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Truth about me
Assalamualaikum
'Someone ever asked me, 'do you have any best friends that you could turn to0?' I thought to myself and all i can say was 'they're busy' when in fact, i don't considered myself as having one... Close friends maybe, good friends yes... Best friend that shares all secrets and understands one another? I've lost him a long time ago... Allah loves him more than I do...'
'Sometimes, i wish to have a best friend aside from my boyfriend... To share all secrets and share my happy moments 'melting' over my boyfriend. A friend that would be there through my ups and downs, listening to my everything w/o thinking or judging me... And even make noise when i came home late alone... ( I MISS YOU, BOB!!! )'
These are the sentences I wrote on my Facebook wall post. I certainly am missing my cat, Bob and he was the only best friend that i could ever had. Now i'm wondering that other than Bob do i have friends that i could call best friends? I believe that i do and i did.
What happened? Well, alot of things happened and people grew up to change. I chose my path to be a loner for a reason and I ended up failing to do so0 and had friends i cared about. Unexpectedly, it didn't last forever, as all of us change and I had enough of these so-called 'best friends are forever' terms and conditions. Why expect someone to be committed and end up getting hurt?
I'm not trying to relive what has been done but i am making sure of myself that I treat all friends the same. I rather not rank them as Bffs, Close friends, good friends, friends.... I rather have one rank and that is Good Friends. Close friends, maybe... I have yet to define close friends. But for sure2, Best Friend is off limits... It's making to0 much of complications in between... With these im making no harm to anyone. I had a best friend and his name is Bob, he left us years ago and he will live in my heart forever. Honestly, to admit someone is my Best Friend is way more difficult than I thought it would be (been through this a million times) and it's time for me to be true to all and to myself... I love all my friends no more and no less... No special treatments just a delay for some situations....
I hope this explains why i'm not quite a social girl. =D
--> People change as they grow but never left short of what's in the past...
? a life to0 precious to WASTE.
7:21 PM
I am 19 as of 2007. Born on 25 July (hari raya haji eve in 1988 at A timing). The third and the last child. Has a cat named BOB, treats him like a brother.
I love Music. Music is my Life.
Treasures friends, family and my Dreams. Daring I am, rebellious still. Passionate and determines my life, no one could steal it from me but HIM.
Blessed with what I have!! Obstacles after another, Patience I learn. Afraid not, I cannot FEAR!! So0 Many, So0 Little... Love me for ME, Hate me for ME. Know me for Real, Fakers are just not me